Today, the baby and I went to a quaint NH town to look at a house. A 30 acre historic farmhouse, with lots of animals. At the moment it is not a working farm, and how I wish I could turn it into one. But me and a 10 year old just can't do it by ourselves. When I think of my friends and all of the equipment and the help they have, reality hits. The main house is 4+ bedrooms minimum and it just goes on and on. Then it has a great little house attached where I can see myself growing old peacefully, while the kids live in the main house and run the farm.
The house itself is very very old. The main house 1865 and the little house 1760 need extensive work. The main house bedrooms don't have heat, nor any vents for heat to rise. So help from my followers, do I fall in love with a farmer or a carpenter/electrician etc. etc. At my age I don't think I will find either. Summers at the house would be a dream in itself, maybe, who knows I will work at it.